Let the fun begin!

Driving, cooking, cleaning, visiting, giving, receiving, laughter, tears, memories, sights, sounds, smells, tastes........

This time of the year is busy, but oh so worth it! I have officially finished my holiday shopping, now on to the fun part of wrapping and giving! I can't wait.

Tomorrow is our family night. Food, fun and gift giving wrapped into one not long enough night! I can't wait!

For all of you driving this holiday season, be careful! Tonight was a bear out there! I felt like Santa in his sleigh - lol.

........singing, dancing, relaxation, conversation, drinking....

Let it snow, Let it snow, LET IT SNOW!

Wow, talk about waking up to a Winter Wonderland! At 5 a.m. the district officially canceled school. We all slept in till around 10:00 a.m. What a wonderful surprise! Well can't say the snow is all to wonderful, but a nice sleep in day was pleasantly welcomed!

While Mark is snow-blowing us (or I mean the neighborhood) out, the girls are enjoying some fun time in the snow. All except Mia, I just haven't ventured out with her just yet! (yeah that means Mom would need to get out in that lovely white fluff).

If you don't have snow, here is some for you!!! Happy Holidays!

It is with great pleasure....

to state I am DONE with school (but only for the semester ;)!! This semester seems to have dragged on, possibly because I was off all summer. What is even of more great importance to me is that I ended this semester with another 4.0. That is a full year of being a straight A student! That amazes me in itself!

Next semester I have Introductory to Algebra (ugh! not another Math!) and Microbiology. Then all I have left to complete is Human Body Holistics and Nursing Pharmacology.

I apply to the Nursing program in March, gosh only 3 short months left - before I begin my actual career - clinicals and all that jazz! I seriously can't wait. Come fall I will be into the Nursing program (thinking positive here) and then I have one year left!

This is all hard word, the dedication and participation from family and friends is something that must be first and foremost. I put alot of things on the backburner for this, I just hope it all pays off in the long run.

Now...I can move on to the holidays!

Finals Week

This picture just about sums up my life as of right now. I feel as if I have been running a marathon. I am tired, no scratch that exhausted! If only I could have the real benefits (health wise) of participating.

This week I have finals. Tutoring also ceases until the new quarter. I feel like possibly now I have time to breathe and take in some events with the girls. Yesterday was my Pathophysiology final. I am happy to say that I walked out of that class with an A. Tomorrow comes Algebra. My ultimate fav! NOT! So far I am carrying an A, however if I don't pass my final, I don't pass the class regardless of what my grade is. Nice, huh? I'll update on that later.

The girls have holiday parties coming up, I still haven't mailed my Christmas cards, and I have not even started my shopping. But it will all be OK. I know it, because I have faith! At least I have my Christmas tree up.

So thankful for Friends and Family!

Even though, the joy of Thanksgiving Day is past, I wanted to touch base on two important things that I have been most thankful for as of late.

My schedule, lately, has been nothing but hectic to say the least. But with the support of my family and friends, this time that I would have otherwise been stressing over has been a lighter load.

This last week, with Mark working overtime (which I am in no way complaining over), we have had to find alternate childcare for the girls.

On Tuesday and Thursday the girls went and spent time with their Uncle Keith, Aunt Mary and cousin Ella. They had a wonderful time. On Thursday, Keith and Mary, braved the feat and took all four girls to the Roseville tree lighting ceremony. The girls were all great and had a fantastic time. They enjoyed hot chocolate, donuts, glow necklaces, balloons and even Santa. They ended their evening with a matinee of The Polar Express.

On Monday and today the girls are spending time with their Aunt Stephanie. The girls have been so happy to spend more quality time with her. They love the time they share together. With her help Rose is now hooked on word finds and crossword puzzles. Mia's speciality has been leaving little surprises in her diaper for Auntie Steph to find, but it is all in LOVE!

On Wednesday, didn't I tell you my schedule is busy, the girls are split between my friend, Ellisa and my sister, Tricia. They experience what they call "Payton's church", Ignite. The girls love learning and participating in all they have to offer there. They come home with fantastic stories and good times shared.

Without the love and faith of these people, and there are many others, I would not be able to accomplish my dream.

At one time I felt that I was depriving my girls with my schedule, having them go here and there and everywhere when times get busy, but now I don't look at it that way. I realize that they are spending time with people who love them and care about them and it will be these time that they remember growing up. The exact kind of memories that I have today and am so thankful for.

So, if you read this - Thank you! Words cannot express my gratitude!

Friends, Family, and Fun!

2008 Thanksgiving has passed without a glitch. The family, friends, food and fun were perfect! I prepared the most scrumptious dinner. The recipe from my dearest Ellisa topped off the day. There were those that thought I purchased the cake (that’s how good it looked!). I even made my own caramel sauce. That was a lot for me. Thank you, hun!

I can’t believe that November has now passed. It’s December and now comes the rush. Finals, Cooking, Cleaning, Shopping, Working – all that fun stuff. Mark and I have decided that this year we will be getting the girls a Wii for Christmas. We only do one major gift from the Jolly man and three small gifts with a symbolization of the gifts from the Wisemen. Like others have said, we are cutting way back. There is no need; that is not the reason for the season.

I volunteered for McRest over New Years. My mom and I will be overnight hosts on New Year’s Eve. Seeing how we usually don’t do much on that night anyway, we might as well do something really worthwhile. I can’t wait.

This weekend, since the weather was nice, the girls were helping Mark in his
Grandparents yard. Without complaint, whine, cry – NOTHING they raked three full bags of leaves. They knew it was needed, they expected nothing. However, they did receive. Papa was most generous and provided them with some money towards their new winter jackets. They were more than thrilled, and so was I. It teaches them that by giving without expectations, you will always receive!

Rose and I watched Nim’s Island over the weekend. We both loved it! It’s one of those happily ever after movies. If you haven’t seen it, take this as our suggestion!

AppleBottom Jeans

Those who know me know Rose's obsession with AppleBottom Jeans. Well yesterday, we fulfilled her wish and probably fueled her fire. Her Zja Zja and Nana decided that they were going to give Rose the remaining amount of money needed to purchase her jeans. She was on Cloud9!

She really is quite the fashion diva, picking out her outfit (she had enough to get a shirt, as well).

Here were her choices:




Her choice of color for her top was Orange, though. Little did I know, Bella, received a pair, as well. This better not start fueling her fire! (Pictures of the girls dolled up will follow later afer work).

Today the girls are getting their pictures taken from a friend, Jess. Hopefully these shots will be used for the upcoming holiday season mailings. This will be one thing crossed off of my list of many. Luckily, this year we are cutting back on the gifts and choosing more time with the families. It is what matters most!

Tutor Time

So I thought I would touch up on the opportunity that I have been given to begin tutoring at Baker College. Two weeks ago, I was approached, based on my GPA, and questioned as to whether I would be interested in beginning to tutor.

On first impression, I knew it was an excellent opportunity for advancement and my resume, but two weeks into this position I now know it is a sacrifice.

My life as I once knew it is non-existent. I tutor 13 hours a week, which at a glance does not seem like much, but it surely is! Between tutoring and school time I hardly see Mark - perhaps like 10 minutes in passing, as he is returning home from work, I am leaving out the door for either work or class. The girls as well, after school time can be quite hectic; getting their homework done and them fed dinner is quite a task. I think they may be getting more attached to their Daddy then their Mommy now.

I would not want to pass up on this opportunity, but need to find that fine balance that I once knew, if it is at all possible?

On top of my hectic schedule

Mon - 6-8:30 tutor
Tue - 6-9:40 Pathophysiology
Wed - 6-8:30 tutor
Thu - 6-9:40 Algebra
Fri - 9-12:30 tutor
Sat - 9-12:30 tutor

I still manage to carry my 4.0, and that to me is a Miracle in itself, but one that is welcomed with open arms!

Family

Today, of all days, I realize how lucky I am to have family. Enjoying dinner with various member of my extended family today, brought realization to this fact. As I was cleaning and listening to the sounds around me; people sharing memories, kids playing gleefully, nothing but complete and utter chaos, it overwhelmed me with JOY. I turned to Mark as he was passing and I knew I needed to express my feeling of contentment in having our family over for dinners such as these, reminding him how blessed we were, in return we shared a special loving kiss and I think for a moment we knew this is what we both had dreamed of.

Today was perfect in many ways. A beautiful enjoyment of bagpipes at church, a productive day of snaking a sewer drain, a wonderfully prepared meal including dessert, memories, laughter, tears and best of all God's blessing of LOVE!

Thank you, God ~ for you have provided me with everything I need. Spiritually, emotionally and physically.

Smarty Pants

**WARNING MOMMY BEAMING WORDS AHEAD**

Like Mother Like Daughter - and I can be proud to say this!

Yesterday was our first marking period Parent Teacher Conference. I was excited to hear the good and the bad, from Rose's teacher, Ms. Shrader. Rose told me earlier in the day that she didn't want me to talk to Ms. Shrader, because what if she told me that she was bad. I have installed the fear in her!

Well, bad first. She is a definite Chatty Cathy. A complete 180 degree turn from the start of Kindergarten. I have been informed that she is quite popular amongst the girls in the class - thus causing a Miss Personality! Not like her Momma there. I was never like that. That is probably why I am "Ok" with this situation as long as it stays in check.

Academically she is performing above normal. Reading and Math at the top of her class. Her reading is in Level C which is end of Kindergarten/beginning of First grade, and her math is actually near second grade level already. So maybe she will be teaching me my math pretty soon! She seems to be comfortable in her daily activities and adjusting well to school in general. No complaints in this area, she did make a comment on how neat Rose's handwriting is! Now that is a Mommy trait!

Gosh, she makes me proud. I feel a sense of accomplishment knowing that I have helped her get here and it will only go further from here.

When asked what she wants to be when she grows up? A teacher who teaches Doctors. Interesting!!

You go, baby girl!

17 years ago.....

I took off that Rollerskate, the one I felt so comfortable on, at I time I felt as if I was "tha bomb" at partying on skates.

Looking back, I didn't realize then, that the next time I would put on a pair of those same skates, I would be thankful that I was there again, but this time not caring about my wobbly knees or what I looked like, only about experiencing it with my daughter!

Last week, Rose's school had a Rollerskating fundraiser. We had a blast. We fell, We laughed, We bonded! As I looked around I saw parents just sitting, not experiencing these precious moments with their children, perhaps they are still afraid of what they will look like?

~*~Halloween Fun~*~

Wow, that picture says it all. Look at Bella's face - she was so excited for Halloween this year. She being a doctor, Rose a witch, and lil ole Mia a sailor! We had tons of fun, laughs, surprises, and candy!!

Bella Preschool 2008-2009

Rose Kindergarten 2008-2009

I had a blast spending Tuesday and Thursday with Bella's class and Friday with Rose's class. What a wonderful boost in energy and love. This is all I have ever wanted! To be that kind of Mom!

And just because I love this little girl so....
Mia looking all cute, dimple and all!!

Public Protection

**Disclaimer**
Yeah, Yeah I know some of you are anal about laws and regulations. Be fully aware, though, that I know I am NOT a bad mother and the series following do not even remotely make me a BAD mother, even though some of you may think so.
**Enough of that rant**

Friday was a day! It started out OK; slept in, cleaned house, got my hair cut (pictures later). Its the trip to pick up Rose that got the best of me.

I was pulled over. For what well, two things / technically three - 1. she felt I was following too close to the person in front of me because I had to keep hitting my brakes (which by the way was not the case, Mark needs to change my brakes and since the brake pedal was low, I was pumping them up) 2. she wanted to inform me I had a brake light out, and then to top it off 3. she noticed Bella was not in a booster seat.

Yes she was buckled and Yes I know the new laws, but dammit I forgot to transfer the booster seats from Mark's car as we were leaving in a hurry to pick up Rose. Bella didn't say a word, as she barreled into the car and just buckled herself up!

I take full responsibility for the ticket, I'll pay the $95.00 so you get your quota and make money on innocent people who make honest mistakes. That's not the issue, what is the issue is what she said to my daughter and how our tax dollars are being put to use.

Yes, I did have a car seat in the back - Mia's. It is adjusted for her, there is no way Bella could fit into it, yet alone would she go into it - why? Because she is 3 and it is not her's its Mia's! As the wonderful (insert sarcastic tone) Officer lady questioned me as to why Bella was not in there I explained my situation, but of course she could not have had a care in the first place. She proceeded to reprimand Bella and explain she needs to get into the seat. Thus causing a 3 year old, who mind you already despises the law, to scream bloody murder. But yet, this so called Officer thought a sticker would make it all better! Yeah!

Needless to say, I told Mark enough transferring of the car seats. We went out this weekend and found a ROCKIN deal on two $80.00 a piece booster seats for $16.00 a piece. They made a new color and were clearancing out this color. SCORE! Works out great, so now no forgetting.

The only thing that stuck in my head during the time of my ticket writing was well one of two things. Getting to Rose before she thought I forgot her (which she definitely did, since she was crying when I finally got to her) and where were you on Saturday night when I called and needed assistance out in front of my house???? Why does it take 30 minutes to arrive when I call you for assistance with a potential crazy screaming like a banshee in the middle of the street trying to kill herself?!?!?!

I tell ya, I just don't get the system! Such is Life!

Revelations!

Now that I seem to be adjusted back into school, I get a little time to breathe.

Lately I have been viewing my life a little different. I don't have to do the things I do, I GET to do these things, and I should be proud - no matter what it is! What do I mean?

Paying bills . . yeah nobody likes to have to pay bills, but I am happy I GET to pay bills in today's economy. I have to go to school, no totally wrong, I GET to go to school, there are some who couldn't accomplish what I am doing. I have to take Rose and Bella to school everyday, strike that I GET to take them to school and I, me of all people, should realize that this is really a privilege!

You see changing ONE little word, makes the world of a difference. Try it sometime!

Today I had a proud Mommy moment. Rose was sent home with a certificate honoring her of her school work. She has completed every assignment, not as asked, but going a step further! She is loving school - you can just feel it! Her accomplishments are astounding!

So far so good at school. My Patho class is awesome. I love learning of the diseases of the body - right up my ally. Today as I was talking with a good friend of mine I realized that I am so close to starting my clinicals. It is amazing how I dreamed of this for so long and I am finally accomplishing this goal. Soon I will be helping those who are in need. However, I know that I am not only doing this for myself, but for my Grandfather, as well. He would have been so proud. Actually he is I feel it!

Preschool

How could I forget? My Bella she started Preschool! What is amazing is that this girl, the one I thought would give me all the trouble, gave me absolutely NONE! Her personality totally changes when you get school involved. Bella asks me daily why she can't go to school everyday like Rose. She adores her teachers, Ms. Pranion and Ms. Marentette.

It's funny when I think about how I have two children in school now. It is amazing how time flies. I look at Bella and remember every little inch of her infant stage, what happened?



I hope something starts to slow down, because I want to start enjoying every little moment and that is hard to do when it seems like your life is in Mach speed (almost as fast as she peddles a tricycle)!

Kindergarten!

Yep, that is right - we all survived! Rose, I knew she would after being so excited. Me, however, I quite surprised myself. Perhaps it was the sadness the previous day that made the day go by easier. Usually, Rose is not a morning person, now things have changed. On the first day, she was up and out of bed and getting ready to eat in record time. She was excited - She wanted to go - She was ready!

As we arrived at school, I was surprised they had everything under control and running like a well oiled machine. They had aides and people everywhere guiding everyone to where they needed to be. That was nice! We immediately were shown the morning routine of finding lockers and hanging up bookbags and such and then were introduced to where she would spend the rest of the year - Learning!

After leaving Rose, I met up with my friend Ellisa for a off to Kindergarten breakfast at Panera. I needed that, unfortunately the Bella and Mia didn't. The time went by much quicker than I could have imagined and then it was ready to pick up Rose from school.

We arrived to pick up Rose and once again I had no worries. She ran up to us with a smile a mile long. She was ready for another day!! It's exciting - It's fun - It's School!!

Now we will see how long this feeling lasts for her ;) lol.

Time are hitting me hard!

Its amazing how time has no patience. Yesterday, um well I guess it was now over 5 years ago, I was giving birth to Rose. Now, tomorrow actually, she starts Kindergarten! It is so bittersweet. She cannot be more excited! I am crying, well sobbing really, at what tomorrow will bring for me, ahem...us! No more sleeping till we get up, no more daily activities together, no more just her and me while the other two nap, Yep this will be quite the change.

Rose, this kind gentle heartfelt daughter of mine, has been doing well with all this change. Perhaps I need to take a lesson or two from her. This weekend she decided she wanted to cut her hair so that she could donate her locks to love. I seriously thought I was going to vomit. I guess I cannot handle change with my children too well. However, her she is just as beautiful as before.



Oh and forgive me next week, when I blog about my new Preschooler ;). I am sure as soon as I start school in 3 weeks my mind will be back where it belongs, but as for right now - my heart is weeping. Good weeps, but hurtful ones, nevertheless!!

On to better notes. This weekend the girls, myself and their Grandparents enjoyed some putt putt golfing - we had a blast - every single one of us!

My Birthday and such!

Happy Birthday, to me!

Happy Birthday, to me!

Happy Birthday, dear me!

Happy Birthday, to me!

Another year, another day, another dollar. They are all starting to feel the same way. Birthday's no longer hold that special feeling. You know the kind of feeling that you look forward to wondering how it will feel to be another year older! I no longer count quarter, half, or three quarter marks. Actually, I probably would not even care if it was no longer a day in my calendar. Ho, hum!

I have been doing alot of soul searching lately. Wondering why I am not happy with the things that have been given to me. Wondering where it is I really want to be. Unfortunately, not coming to any real conclusions other than I feel lost. Hoping the spirit heals me, wherever it is I need to be healed!

I know this is effecting me, it probably is effecting the girls. I no longer want to leave the house with them. I don't have the energy, always feeling it is wasted time. I get in these funks - - I NEED to get out of this one. On to happier thoughts....

Mia is sooooooo close to walking! A couple more weeks of this teeter/tottering and she will be a pro. I can't believe how fast she has grown.

The older two - are seriously getting on each others last nerve! I can't wait till they have seperated for a bit. Anyone want to daycamp a 5 year old ;) lol

My Kitchen!

Most people, and I can say this with the power of knowledge, do not realize what conveniences they have when it comes to the kitchen. For 10, yes I typed that right (ten), long years I have had the opportunity to experience these inconveniences. Granted they didn't seem too inconvienent as I was experiencing them, however now when I look back and realize all that I was missing, I understand the importance of a proper "flowing" kitchen.

I'm sure most are tired of hearing me talk about this, but this was/is something HUGE for me. I can now cook, clean, store, wash; you name it I can do it. I now have a brand new garbage disposer, a new dishwasher, and overhead microwave. All that is missing is a new stove and fridge - Someday! ;)

Yes there are some touches that we need to finish up (like all the moldings), Oh and cabinet pulls and knobs {looking for black matte ones, if anyone wants to suggest some} - which we just can't seem to find :( All in all this project has gone rather smooth, has cost quite a bit more money than I cared to spend, or should I say had planned to go elsewhere, yet I don't care; I am happy, elated, excited and ready to spend some time in MY kitchen cooking!

Thoughts, Ramblings, Ponderings...

Well this is the week. Summer Bible Camp. I have been planning this for over 6 months now and it is upon us now. So far, let me just say today was better than yesterday. I try to keep in mind that the kids enjoyment far outweighs the personal feats of my day. I have met some fabulous youth throughout this adventure. I can honestly say I am glad God has been most gracious to bless me with the ability to provide for them! Rose (and Bella) are having a blast serving Jesus in God's Big Backyard!!


Today, my final grades posted. I'm kinda sad. I have realized that perhaps school is my exit. My time, even if it is for school work. Come fall I will be out of the house 2 nights (back to back). I can't wait! I miss school and the pressure (even thought I have a but ton of work to do around the house).

This week my Step Father spoke with his niece who is going to contact her supervisor at Henry Ford Macomb to see about getting me in on her floor to work as a Patient Care Assistant. Keep your fingers crossed, this would be a blessing for above. Getting my foot in the door and even getting assistance with tuition.

Sunday we took the girls to see the Tall Ships down on the River Days in Detroit. The girls were amazed and met a pretty interesting character who Rose says was Jack Sparrow. I can definitely see some resemblance - what about you?

I'm going to get my kitchen pictures together tonite, so I can post them finally!

Saturday is Mia's 1st Birthday party, am I ready? Of course not :( My mind is just not in it yet - smack me someone will ya ;)

Bee back later!

Schools Out for Summer!!

Sing it with me!! I feel left with that empty feeling right now. I no longer have a place to go nor check into everyday. What will I do with my time? I am preparing for VBC next week, where I am Coordinator. This has to be the most exciting thing I have done in a long time. I have met some fabulous people these last few months working with everyone getting this next week together. Tomorrow is set up day! I can't believe it is here already. Seriously though what will I do with myself after next week??? I feel like a lost puppy dog.

No bragging, but 4.0 this semester as well!!!!! Another Dean's list. whoot whoot! I am so proud of myself, I tell ya. It's good to feel this way. I try hard, I sacrifice alot, I micro manage everything - - - and for what - - - this feeling :) Next semester I take Pathophysiology and Algebra. Then I only have 4 more courses till I can apply to the Nursing program!!! OMG, it is almost here.

I am most excited, actually. I joined the healthcare ministry at church this last week. I am so glad I took this step. I will be volunteering under Henry Ford Ministry of Parish Networks (great for the resume). I am going to start performing blood pressure checks, home visits, and other minor things under the direct supervision of a few RN's from surrounding Henry Ford hospitals. I am geeked, I tell ya!!

The girls have taken a new liking to playing outside. Our neighbor behind us has a little girl in the 5th grade and both Rose and Bella go over and play in their backyard for hours! Today, I don't even think I saw them but like for 1 hour the whole afternoon. It's nice they call each other best friends and hug and are decent with each other (sometimes this is hard to find).

I am planning Mia's birthday party for the 28th of this month. I suppose I should get busy on that. Hopefully now that school is in hiatus I will be able to post more frequently. Let me think of some good stuff to post! OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

MY KITCHEN IS DONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(Look for pics tomorrow)

Happy Birthday, Mama Mia Jianna!

Time flies when you are having fun, so they say. Unbeknownst to me, I must have been having a hell of a time. My baby is not ONE! She is full of character and style. Much more comical than her sisters ever were. She has a way to charm herself into every little inch of your soul. But surely not ONE right??

WRONG!!

June 13, 2007 - I will remember this birth like no other. Its amazing to think that I thought nothing could top the experience of my first birth. Mia Jianna was born this beautifully sunny day at 10:55 a.m. One of my closest friends was near by to help me bring this child into our world. Without her I know this memory would have been much worse, and for that, along with many other things I thank her.

Mia, was my biggest baby. Weighing at a whopping 10 lbs 11 ounces. When she was born she needed some assistance breathing. She were placed on a ventilator to assist her breathing. I will never forget the pain and apprehension I felt lying on the table not being able to make sure she was going to be fine. My surgery needed to be finished and it felt like it would go on forever. I had some of the best nurses that day. Those who knew what I needed to see and hear. When I was said and done, I waited for Mia! 5 long hours, it seemed like forever. Now, I can't get 5 minutes away without her!

Mia, Mommy loves you with all of her heart and soul. I thank God for you every day. He knew what I needed and placed you with me. What a wonderful blessing you are. I can't remember what life was like before you, nor do I want to. You are my baby, my big girl, and my sassy all wrapped up in one happy package!! I love you.....how much.......from the tip of your nose, and all the way down to the tip of your toes!!!!!

Happy 1st Birthday, Mia Jianna!! My God is definitely most Gracious!

Ho hum....

I did it again! Another Dean's list down - millions more (at least it seems) to go. I got all A's again this semester, after all this worrying and doubting - I prevailed! Today marks the official first day of Spring quarter, I was kinda enjoying my break, guess I have to wait 10 more weeks till Summer break. Oh well....;) A&P II and Comp II here I come....

Mia update: She cut TWO teeth (her bottom two) I knew they were coming!!!!!!

My life right now is so hectic. I need time to sort my thoughts, but I don't have any time to spare. Geez Louise, I hardly have time to update here. If anyone knows where I can purchase time really cheap let me know ;)

Happy 5th Birthday, Princess Rose Marie!

Happy Birthday to you ** Happy Birthday to you ** Happy Birthday dear, Rose ** Happy Birthday to you! I, truely, 100% without a doubt cannot believe that my baby is 5. It is so bittersweet.

5 years ago, 3/15/03, was the day that changed my life. After waiting nearly 5 years to conceive a child - one was going to be born to me that day! Wow, was I in for a surprise. From my, to the tee, birth plan not going as planned - to the adjustments of having a newborn. I have learned so much, but never, ever, want life any way other than the way it is TODAY.

Rose Marie, was born at 1:55 a.m. after a grueling 33 hours of labor and 2 1/2 hours of pushing. I just couldn't do it anymore, she was soooooo close to being born vaginally, but not close enough. She was born via C-Section and I was put under general anesthesia. My first experience with all of that, looking back it must not have been that bad, since I went on to have two more children ;) She was my smallest, but at the time seemed so big, weighing in at 8 pounds 9 ounces and 21 inches long. She was such a beautiful baby - both inside and out. She loved to snuggle, that is why we called her treefrog, and now she is "toad".

I seriously don't know where the time went, but I do know that I have to savor the future since I know that will go by even faster. She was so happy to turn 5. It was a day for many new things for her! She even learned to tie her shoes. We treated her special day to Chuckie Cheese and she felt so special. Over the weekend we had some of our family and friends over for a "lemonicious" cake and lemon ice cream, decorated with Little Mermaid, per Rose's request. She got some great gifts, but best of all loved spending time with those special people in her life!

Rose, since I will make sure you have a copy of this when you get older, Mommy and Daddy love you soooooo much. We are so proud of you and can't wait to watch you mature into a blossoming bud! We love you!! How much - to infinity and beyond!

Finally....

Finally - All good things come to an end so they say. Today I have my Final practical in A&P. I feel ready, I feel smart, I feel the pressure. My grade is a B in the lecture part of the class. How the grading thing works is that you take 80% of Lecture and 20% of Lab - add them together and VOILA a grade. So I am figuring (and maybe I shouldn't) that if I ACE this practical it will bump my final grade to an A!! I aced the Midterm 100% no problem, but now the pressure is on. I should just be happy with what I have, most don't even pass this class the first time. I think the odds were like 60% fail!!! But really, I am greedy, I would love an "A" so I can maintain my Dean's List status....ho hum!

Finally - We have figured out the whole "Rose School Situation". God has answered my prayers, I feel really blessed lately, because he is answering alot of my prayers. We applied Rose to L'anse Creuse Public Schools for full day Kindergarden starting in the fall, and well she got accepted!! This school district is awesome!! They are so friendly, caring, helpful and well their test scores aren't too shabby either. Rose and I went up to Yacks elementary (where she will attend) to pick up her registration papers. While we were there the secretary gave Rose a T-Shirt that said "Class of 2021" --- WHAT!! --- It hit me, the tears started, she is growing up and fast at that!

Finally - The time is almost near, my first born, my baby is going to be 5. Yes 5!!! Two more days...I have been reflecting alot on the time of her birth. I seriously remember it like it was yesterday! I can recall all the vivid and not so vivid details, It's freaky.

Finally a Kitchen update: I ordered my faucets yesterday! I can't wait to see them. We got a sweet deal as well!! I got them from Ebay (brand new) one for $69.00 and one for $74.00. One of these goes for $180.00 at Lowes so I basically got two for the price of one! After ten L O N G years of having NO kitchen it is finally starting to come together!

~*~*BRAINS*~*~

What is it about the Brain that is so fascinating? Tonite was my first experience in dissecting one! A sheep brain at that....Warning the next few lines are not for the weak of stomach! I love how squishy the brain is. I was able to cut the meninges off the brain (that is the layer around the brain that protects it), cut the brain in half, and examine and recognize all the parts of the brain. I don't know why but it was so interesting to poke through the sulci (the ridges of the brain). One downside I think I smelled of Formaldehyde all night. OK enough about that!

Yesterday marked my first parent/teacher conference. I was nervous, but it went great. Leads me to the title of my Blog again. Brains! Ms. B was thoroughly impressed with Ro. She had no complaints or real concerns. She mentioned that she felt Rose was advanced with most of the aspects needed for Kindergarden readiness. Things that amazed her were Rose's ability to add and subtract - numbers between 1-10; read a small book with recognizable words; and her rote rehearsal of numbers past 100. Of course, she said she was *the* only child in her class to know her name and how to spell it, address, birthday, phone number, and how to spell family members name and their birthdays. She did voice how Rose can talk an ear off! I hope that doesn't become a problem! ;) She did mention a few things were Rose was improving - she has a hard time recognizing the color gray and the shape of a diamond? Not sure how we missed covering those. Ms. B is also noticing progress in her ability to share without instruction or being assisted and following through and cleaning up her activities after she is complete. Two things that I knew would be a work in progress.

I'm proud of my "bud" that is for sure. She is ready for the next step, I hope I can be!

Happy 3rd Birthday, Princess Bella Grace!

February 14th - Valentines Day - my beautiful Bella turned 3. I am still in utter dismay! It seems like yesterday, I just found out I was pregnant with her. I was shocked and really didn't want to tell anyone, but told one of my closest friends. We were in a locker room, of all places, getting ready for swimming time with our first born children. What a MOMENT! Bella was born via C-Section on Valentines Day (yes, I did pick the day) weighing in a whooping 9 pounds 11 ounces and 21 inches long. I didn't know at the time, but she proved to be one of my easiest in Oh, so many ways. Her birth experience was perfect in more ways then one and she was by far the easiest of my babies thus far.

Sunday, we celebrated her day with our family. She was gleaming with joy! She wanted a Strawberry cake with Strawberries on it and Strawberry ice cream (do you think she likes Strawberries or something). So Grandma W. made the magic happen and produced a "Princess Belle" cake. She got some beautiful gifts, but above all her favorite was her Princess Belle (dress up) outfit. She immediately put it on and struted around like a Princess for the rest of the day.

I still can not believe 3 years have gone by. She has instilled so much into me as a mother.

**I love her way behind my back**

*~*~Happy 3rd Birthday, Princess Belle!~*~*

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Mia Jianna

Mia, my "Mimi" - is 7 months. Wow, 7 months, where did that time go? I swear I just had her. Goodness, I think with each child you have the time goes by faster :(. She was given to me to brighten my spirit. Mia and I are still learning each other, but goodness she has a laugh to her. I call her my jokester. She is always laughing at me, her sisters, anything SHE finds funny. She is the one I am always worried about, more then the other two. I wonder if it is from her birth experience? She is still not crawling (not complaining believe me), but last week she learned to bring herself to a stand (WHAT!!). Way to early, I tell ya. She loves to eat - be it the boob, cheerios, table food - she don't care as long as it goes in her mouth. I love to listen to her eat, she MMMMM's with each bite. I just wanted to touch up on the meaning of Mia's name, because I have been thinking about it lately. Mia Jianna means My God is gracious and I can definately 100% without a doubt tell you that MY God is gracious for giving me this spirited little girl!

I love her -(how much)- don't know I haven't found a how much that sticks to her yet, but very soon I am sure I can fill in the blank.

xoxoxox

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Bella Grace

Bella, my "Belle" - is 2 (well, technically 3 - only 2 more weeks till her birthday). My blessing in disguise. What a independent soul. I'm not sure there is a child out there that wants to do everything themselves as much as she does. She is such a neat freak, too. (Ok, Mommy rubbed off too much on her) She is the one that gives me my run for the money, maybe we are more alike then I think? She is so bright, and can light up a room with her smile (only when SHE wants to though). I'm not sure where she learns it from, because I admit after having her I didn't have as much time to spend with just her as I did with just Rose. She amazes me daily, goodness child, what do you have in that head - ALL BRAINS? She knows her full name, how to spell it, her phone number (WHAT?), shapes, colors, numbers, letters, how old she is, her birthday. Was it all those months of breastfeeding or all that avocado I fed ya?? lol One thing that she could live without - - - - TV!!! She loves to draw, color, write, paint - you name it - Artistic baby! Her favorite book right now is the Princess Bible, she sleeps with it every night.

I love her -(how much)- way behind my back!!

xoxoxox

My girls.....

My girls....talking 'bout my girls.....

I need to post a bit about my girls. Why, because I could not imagine my life without them. Little bit of background here, but it took me 6 LONG years to have my first one - so of course they are the "light of my life".

Rose Marie

Rose, my "toad" - is 4 (shhhh don't tell her that - she will say she is going to be 5 really soon). I thank God for her everyday. She started it all. Sure she has an attitude already, but with a Mom like me how could she not. She shines, I tell ya. She excels at everything she does (even her temper tantrums). Give her a couple of trial runs and she is off on her own. I can't imagine where she gets her smarts from ;) lol. She is better at navigating the computer then my husband. She is learning to read, as we speak. She knows probably 20 words, and can read a few of her books, front to back. This is such an interesting time in my life - watching her bloom. She couldn't be more ready for kindergarten - she loves school. She is totally into Christian pop music as well. Sure she knows Hannah Montana and High School Musical, but she will pick My God is an Awesome God over any other song in the world. She has been attending Sunday school at St. Margarets for 2 years now and has formed some really close bonds to some fellow parishioners. I only wish I had that when I was a child.

I love her -(how much)- to infinity and beyond!!

@}---

Relaxation

There is something to be said when the only ounce of relaxation you get is during school and while sitting in a dentist chair.

Over this weekend, I got a toothache!! Ugh, ugh, UGH! A totally different side of my mouth then I was thinking would begin to ache. Flash to 6:45 p.m. sitting in a dentist chair getting a root canal - I've had enough of this already. Rose was sitting by my side, acting so big. I figure maybe if she sees what I am going through right now she will take better care of her teeth then I ever did.


School update:

Week 4 of the Semester this week - only 6 more weeks to go till the Semester ends. I got my test scores in A&P today - 41 out of 45 - not to shabby. So far all highest possible scores in Comp I - I hope it continues to go this well.

It's time!

What a great idea! How could I not join the bandwagon? Something to hand down to the girls, something to keep for myself to reflect on, something to add to my already crazy life. Whatever the case may be - I'm jumping on now and holding on for dear life.