Kindergarten Graduation!

I'm a bit behind, but things have been crazy!

Last week, Rose graduated from Kindergarten. It's crazy this year flew by. It seems as though just yesterday I was walking her to her first day of school!


That was the beginning of the school year!

Now....







What a change!!

* She has made wonderful new friends, and yet through her again so have I. * She has learned so much, just in one short year - its unbelievable, and yet through her again so have I. * She has developed a personality, not always one I like - but one that is HER, and yet through her again so have I - lol. * She is blossoming!

Yet even through these accomplishments I still look at her and see my "baby" Rose. The baby that clung to me and needed me for everything. The child who loved my peanut butter and jellies (now SHE needs to make them). The little girl who wanted me to play with her at all times (now all SHE wants is her friends). I don't think I will ever look at her any differently, even as she matures.

It's what makes me a Mom. It's what reminds me of where we have been and where we will go! It's what keep me from insanely crying, wondering why she must grow up!

Rose, I am so proud of you for what you have accomplished this year. You are everything I could have ever asked for!

You will always be my lil' TOAD!

Moving on up...

Lately, I have felt a feeling of change in my life.

"Change has a considerable psychological impact on the human mind. To the fearful it is threatening because it means that things may get worse. To the hopeful it is encouraging because things may get better. To the confident it is inspiring because the challenge exists to make things better."

What is changing, well lets see...what isn't ;)

I don't have connections with my friends that I once had, nor do I feel the need to keep those said connections.

I feel disconnected from my overall health.

I've made some new friends, that I am completely thankful for. They understand me, and that means a lot.

My views on whats important have really become apparant.

Appreciation has become my new best friend!

Sure some are not so good, but right now I think the good changes are outweighing the bad changes. I knew this would happen when I went back to school. Priorities change, people change, you change. I keep telling myself it will be all worth it when it is over. Perhaps after repeating it enough, I will believe it whole-heartedly.

I'm missing people, my Dad, being one of them. (Hi Dad!) I wish there was a way for us to spend some time together, soon - I hope! Perhaps if I get accepted to Nursing school, I can splurge and come and visit with you!

I'm burning out of school. Perhaps its the uncertainity and knowing that after all of this hard work, I may not get into my program. That really changes your perspective, believe me. However, I am still moving on.

I'm embracing this change, taking it and moving on up!

For up is the only way to go!!

Risen!

I hope you all had a most enjoyable Easter. We enjoyed a dinner/day with family! What more could you ask for?


I need to post this, I love this story of Rose.


P.S. If you think taking pictures of 1 or 2 children is hard, try 3! Next to impossible, almost!!

While at the hospital on Saturday visiting my husbands grandmother, a nurse started talking with Rose about what happens Sunday (Easter). Nurse asked Rose, "Who comes tomorrow?" Rose thought for a quick moment and said, "Jesus". The nurse looked up at me with a startled eye. I smiled. She then proceeded to ask Rose, "Well, what is so special about tomorrow?" I know the Nurse was looking for the usual Easter Bunny, or Easter Basket reply, however Rose proceeded to state, "Jesus lives!". The look on the nurses face was pure joy in my heart. Hallelujah!

It's begun!

The craziness, the monotony, the impatience! School started last week. Nursing Pharmacology and The Human Body: Human Body Holistics. One seems harder then the other, I will let you ponder on that one.

With school, comes tutoring. I'm becoming less and less fond of the idea of spending my precious time doing this "chore". I won't even comment anymore on this! The words aren't nice.

I took my first big test on Tuesday! Wow, it was intense. I will get my results in three weeks, it seems like an eternity of waiting, though! Next big one is in May.

Last week, was a week filled with emotions. My daughter lost her Kindergarten teacher. The reasons are clear, but with privacy matters at hand, we were not told the truth. I was devistated, hurt, words cannot speak my emotions last week. Rose was the same, she seems to be handling it better now, but still the same she misses her teacher!!

This week is Spring Break for the girls, but not for Mommy. Hopefully I can fit some fun things into the schedule for them to do. They deserve it! They have been so supportive and well behaved through my whole schooling adventure (well pretty much ;)

Wanna hear a funny: When I leave the house - all the girls (including Mia) say All A's Mom - no B's. My response is yeah, because B's are a BUMMER! I love them so - they keep me going....

Sunday is Easter, we have plans to have lunch/dinner with family. Thats the best part!

Notice!

Yes, I am pouting. I'm just not right, I tell ya! However much I pray, however much I think positive, the pouting just doesn't go away!

Things are crazy here, emotionally - physically, just plain crazy! The stress is taking its toll on me, but yet there is nothing that I can do to change it. It's out of my control, I know that much, but still how do you let it go.

Mark's hours were reduced at work. That probably plays the biggest part right now. The uncertainty of layoff, the what ifs are almost enough to drive a person to drink. Yeah I know, its not a layoff, but that is a pay reduction we just can't afford right now.

Finals week were last week. Sure I finished the semester with another 4.0, but I wasn't even really too excited about that. I'm getting burnt out, and it probably stems from the fact that my big Nursing Entrance Test is coming up and I am SCARED. This is the make or breaking point. This determines if I have just wasted $13,000 or not. Also, the stress from the above paragraph, who knows if I will continue. Right now our family's finances are most important and if I have to go back to work full time, I will.

Mark's Grandma was taken into the hospital this past week. Things were shaky and things still are. She has recovered from her surgery (which they still don't know the actual cause of illness), but this has left her just a little confused. I am hoping that this wears off soon.

I don't know why, but my life seems a mess right now. I'm ready for a change. I'm putting in my two week notice, if things don't change, well.....I don't know.....maybe I will just QUIT! Leaving and going to, hmmmmm, I don't know somewhere far and exotic sounds just about perfect to me right now! My very own deserted island!

Happy 6th Birthday, Rose Marie!

Today, was Rose's 6th Birthday! Wow these years are flying!

Friday we celebrated her birthday at school with all of her classmates and brought in mini blueberry muffins with a cream cheese frosting and blueberries on top. Yum Yum! It was wonderful to share in her day at school. Songs and wishes from all her teachers and friends made the day even more special!

On Friday evening she lost her first tooth. She couldn't of been more excited. She wants another one to come out, already. The tooth fairy brought her and very special "chapter" book and of course some money! I wonder if that is why she wants another one to fall out!

I'm speechless right now, probably because of the montage I just made....here you tell me what you think!!

I really need to start slowing down and smelling the coffee, I feel like I may start missing some thing....

Photo and video editing at www.OneTrueMedia.com

Friends!

Last week, I had the pleasure of chaperoning Rose's Kindergarten class to the Detroit Opera House to see "If you give a Pig a Pancake". There was a total of fifty 5 and 6 year old on one bus! What an interesting journey. Who would have thought singing Jingle Bells in February would be so much fun!!

I was placed with 6 girls, of course, 6 of Rose's closest girlfriends! What a riot. The girls were great together; holding hands, hugging, laughing - just being generally concerned about each other (including me) while we were out.

I seriously considered changing my major. Elementary education was calling my name that day.

All in all this has been the day I have been looking forward to for many years now. What a joy! I can't wait to do it again!

Oh, and If you get a chance to see the performance of "If you give a Pig a Pancake" - do it! It was wonderful!