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**Disclaimer**
Yeah, Yeah I know some of you are anal about laws and regulations. Be fully aware, though, that I know I am NOT a bad mother and the series following do not even remotely make me a BAD mother, even though some of you may think so.
**Enough of that rant**

Friday was a day! It started out OK; slept in, cleaned house, got my hair cut (pictures later). Its the trip to pick up Rose that got the best of me.

I was pulled over. For what well, two things / technically three - 1. she felt I was following too close to the person in front of me because I had to keep hitting my brakes (which by the way was not the case, Mark needs to change my brakes and since the brake pedal was low, I was pumping them up) 2. she wanted to inform me I had a brake light out, and then to top it off 3. she noticed Bella was not in a booster seat.

Yes she was buckled and Yes I know the new laws, but dammit I forgot to transfer the booster seats from Mark's car as we were leaving in a hurry to pick up Rose. Bella didn't say a word, as she barreled into the car and just buckled herself up!

I take full responsibility for the ticket, I'll pay the $95.00 so you get your quota and make money on innocent people who make honest mistakes. That's not the issue, what is the issue is what she said to my daughter and how our tax dollars are being put to use.

Yes, I did have a car seat in the back - Mia's. It is adjusted for her, there is no way Bella could fit into it, yet alone would she go into it - why? Because she is 3 and it is not her's its Mia's! As the wonderful (insert sarcastic tone) Officer lady questioned me as to why Bella was not in there I explained my situation, but of course she could not have had a care in the first place. She proceeded to reprimand Bella and explain she needs to get into the seat. Thus causing a 3 year old, who mind you already despises the law, to scream bloody murder. But yet, this so called Officer thought a sticker would make it all better! Yeah!

Needless to say, I told Mark enough transferring of the car seats. We went out this weekend and found a ROCKIN deal on two $80.00 a piece booster seats for $16.00 a piece. They made a new color and were clearancing out this color. SCORE! Works out great, so now no forgetting.

The only thing that stuck in my head during the time of my ticket writing was well one of two things. Getting to Rose before she thought I forgot her (which she definitely did, since she was crying when I finally got to her) and where were you on Saturday night when I called and needed assistance out in front of my house???? Why does it take 30 minutes to arrive when I call you for assistance with a potential crazy screaming like a banshee in the middle of the street trying to kill herself?!?!?!

I tell ya, I just don't get the system! Such is Life!

Revelations!

Now that I seem to be adjusted back into school, I get a little time to breathe.

Lately I have been viewing my life a little different. I don't have to do the things I do, I GET to do these things, and I should be proud - no matter what it is! What do I mean?

Paying bills . . yeah nobody likes to have to pay bills, but I am happy I GET to pay bills in today's economy. I have to go to school, no totally wrong, I GET to go to school, there are some who couldn't accomplish what I am doing. I have to take Rose and Bella to school everyday, strike that I GET to take them to school and I, me of all people, should realize that this is really a privilege!

You see changing ONE little word, makes the world of a difference. Try it sometime!

Today I had a proud Mommy moment. Rose was sent home with a certificate honoring her of her school work. She has completed every assignment, not as asked, but going a step further! She is loving school - you can just feel it! Her accomplishments are astounding!

So far so good at school. My Patho class is awesome. I love learning of the diseases of the body - right up my ally. Today as I was talking with a good friend of mine I realized that I am so close to starting my clinicals. It is amazing how I dreamed of this for so long and I am finally accomplishing this goal. Soon I will be helping those who are in need. However, I know that I am not only doing this for myself, but for my Grandfather, as well. He would have been so proud. Actually he is I feel it!

Preschool

How could I forget? My Bella she started Preschool! What is amazing is that this girl, the one I thought would give me all the trouble, gave me absolutely NONE! Her personality totally changes when you get school involved. Bella asks me daily why she can't go to school everyday like Rose. She adores her teachers, Ms. Pranion and Ms. Marentette.

It's funny when I think about how I have two children in school now. It is amazing how time flies. I look at Bella and remember every little inch of her infant stage, what happened?



I hope something starts to slow down, because I want to start enjoying every little moment and that is hard to do when it seems like your life is in Mach speed (almost as fast as she peddles a tricycle)!

Kindergarten!

Yep, that is right - we all survived! Rose, I knew she would after being so excited. Me, however, I quite surprised myself. Perhaps it was the sadness the previous day that made the day go by easier. Usually, Rose is not a morning person, now things have changed. On the first day, she was up and out of bed and getting ready to eat in record time. She was excited - She wanted to go - She was ready!

As we arrived at school, I was surprised they had everything under control and running like a well oiled machine. They had aides and people everywhere guiding everyone to where they needed to be. That was nice! We immediately were shown the morning routine of finding lockers and hanging up bookbags and such and then were introduced to where she would spend the rest of the year - Learning!

After leaving Rose, I met up with my friend Ellisa for a off to Kindergarten breakfast at Panera. I needed that, unfortunately the Bella and Mia didn't. The time went by much quicker than I could have imagined and then it was ready to pick up Rose from school.

We arrived to pick up Rose and once again I had no worries. She ran up to us with a smile a mile long. She was ready for another day!! It's exciting - It's fun - It's School!!

Now we will see how long this feeling lasts for her ;) lol.

Time are hitting me hard!

Its amazing how time has no patience. Yesterday, um well I guess it was now over 5 years ago, I was giving birth to Rose. Now, tomorrow actually, she starts Kindergarten! It is so bittersweet. She cannot be more excited! I am crying, well sobbing really, at what tomorrow will bring for me, ahem...us! No more sleeping till we get up, no more daily activities together, no more just her and me while the other two nap, Yep this will be quite the change.

Rose, this kind gentle heartfelt daughter of mine, has been doing well with all this change. Perhaps I need to take a lesson or two from her. This weekend she decided she wanted to cut her hair so that she could donate her locks to love. I seriously thought I was going to vomit. I guess I cannot handle change with my children too well. However, her she is just as beautiful as before.



Oh and forgive me next week, when I blog about my new Preschooler ;). I am sure as soon as I start school in 3 weeks my mind will be back where it belongs, but as for right now - my heart is weeping. Good weeps, but hurtful ones, nevertheless!!

On to better notes. This weekend the girls, myself and their Grandparents enjoyed some putt putt golfing - we had a blast - every single one of us!

My Birthday and such!

Happy Birthday, to me!

Happy Birthday, to me!

Happy Birthday, dear me!

Happy Birthday, to me!

Another year, another day, another dollar. They are all starting to feel the same way. Birthday's no longer hold that special feeling. You know the kind of feeling that you look forward to wondering how it will feel to be another year older! I no longer count quarter, half, or three quarter marks. Actually, I probably would not even care if it was no longer a day in my calendar. Ho, hum!

I have been doing alot of soul searching lately. Wondering why I am not happy with the things that have been given to me. Wondering where it is I really want to be. Unfortunately, not coming to any real conclusions other than I feel lost. Hoping the spirit heals me, wherever it is I need to be healed!

I know this is effecting me, it probably is effecting the girls. I no longer want to leave the house with them. I don't have the energy, always feeling it is wasted time. I get in these funks - - I NEED to get out of this one. On to happier thoughts....

Mia is sooooooo close to walking! A couple more weeks of this teeter/tottering and she will be a pro. I can't believe how fast she has grown.

The older two - are seriously getting on each others last nerve! I can't wait till they have seperated for a bit. Anyone want to daycamp a 5 year old ;) lol

My Kitchen!

Most people, and I can say this with the power of knowledge, do not realize what conveniences they have when it comes to the kitchen. For 10, yes I typed that right (ten), long years I have had the opportunity to experience these inconveniences. Granted they didn't seem too inconvienent as I was experiencing them, however now when I look back and realize all that I was missing, I understand the importance of a proper "flowing" kitchen.

I'm sure most are tired of hearing me talk about this, but this was/is something HUGE for me. I can now cook, clean, store, wash; you name it I can do it. I now have a brand new garbage disposer, a new dishwasher, and overhead microwave. All that is missing is a new stove and fridge - Someday! ;)

Yes there are some touches that we need to finish up (like all the moldings), Oh and cabinet pulls and knobs {looking for black matte ones, if anyone wants to suggest some} - which we just can't seem to find :( All in all this project has gone rather smooth, has cost quite a bit more money than I cared to spend, or should I say had planned to go elsewhere, yet I don't care; I am happy, elated, excited and ready to spend some time in MY kitchen cooking!