I'm Alive!!

Really I am. I'm hoping to make a weekly post beginning this Friday. Stay Tuned!

The time is drawing near....

I can't believe Summer is over. Where did it go, what did we do? It all seems a blur. Tuesday both of the girls start school. They will both be going to school 5 days a week. Rose will go all day, Bella will be going a half day. They are excited, I'm not sure if I am.

With them starting school it means that pretty soon I will be starting school only a few weeks later. I'm excited yet slightly nervous. Last week I attended our two full day orientation to prepare us and inform us more about the remaining of our time in Nursing school. You know like how difficult it is going to be, how demanding it will be, how you won't see your family very much. I'm praying I find the strength to get through the next 50 weeks.

Mark is still unemployed. That, I think make it more difficult on me. He says that I should be relieved since I don't have to worry about childcare and such, but it makes for quite a stressful time. One good thing is that he had a job interview today, which went fairly well in his favor. We keep praying!

Thats about it happening lately, I'm sure you will here from me sooner than later - since I will be needing to vent a little more often!

....Rain....

Singing in the rain, just singing in the rain - what a a glorious feeling - I'm happy again!

Last night, I attended a Moody Blues concert with family members. As I was sitting, in the rain, in the torential downpour of rain, I realized that I am blessed beyond all measures to have this family to enjoy these moments with. It wasn't what we expected or wanted, but boy did we make the best of it.

Food, Fun, Concert, Rain and Singing make a blissful event!

Watching the free light show (lightening) was another highlight of the evening! To see the beauty we are given up CLOSE was amazing!

What a great ending to a weekend! I can't wait for the family reunion, only a few more weeks!

(oh sorry, no pictures - my camera doesn't like water ;)

Happy Happy Joy Joy!

A little someone reminded me I should update this more often. Sorry I hang around facebook so often, I forget about this little area!

Much has happened since I last posted. Mia's Birthday, My Birthday, Mark's layoff from his job, but most of all the best thing that I could have possibly asked for was my letter to.......








Congratulate me on my acceptance into Nursing School!! If there was anything that I needed right now in my life it was that letter. For two L O N G years I have been wishing to hear what I heard in that letter! I finished all my pre-requisites with a GPA of 3.98! That I think amazes me the most. I have found something that I not only enjoy, but something that I am absolutely good at! I am still tutoring through the college, and have been working towards my certificate in that as well. BUSY BUSY

Things are all coming together, now if only the rest of my life would.

More to come later!

Kindergarten Graduation!

I'm a bit behind, but things have been crazy!

Last week, Rose graduated from Kindergarten. It's crazy this year flew by. It seems as though just yesterday I was walking her to her first day of school!


That was the beginning of the school year!

Now....







What a change!!

* She has made wonderful new friends, and yet through her again so have I. * She has learned so much, just in one short year - its unbelievable, and yet through her again so have I. * She has developed a personality, not always one I like - but one that is HER, and yet through her again so have I - lol. * She is blossoming!

Yet even through these accomplishments I still look at her and see my "baby" Rose. The baby that clung to me and needed me for everything. The child who loved my peanut butter and jellies (now SHE needs to make them). The little girl who wanted me to play with her at all times (now all SHE wants is her friends). I don't think I will ever look at her any differently, even as she matures.

It's what makes me a Mom. It's what reminds me of where we have been and where we will go! It's what keep me from insanely crying, wondering why she must grow up!

Rose, I am so proud of you for what you have accomplished this year. You are everything I could have ever asked for!

You will always be my lil' TOAD!

Moving on up...

Lately, I have felt a feeling of change in my life.

"Change has a considerable psychological impact on the human mind. To the fearful it is threatening because it means that things may get worse. To the hopeful it is encouraging because things may get better. To the confident it is inspiring because the challenge exists to make things better."

What is changing, well lets see...what isn't ;)

I don't have connections with my friends that I once had, nor do I feel the need to keep those said connections.

I feel disconnected from my overall health.

I've made some new friends, that I am completely thankful for. They understand me, and that means a lot.

My views on whats important have really become apparant.

Appreciation has become my new best friend!

Sure some are not so good, but right now I think the good changes are outweighing the bad changes. I knew this would happen when I went back to school. Priorities change, people change, you change. I keep telling myself it will be all worth it when it is over. Perhaps after repeating it enough, I will believe it whole-heartedly.

I'm missing people, my Dad, being one of them. (Hi Dad!) I wish there was a way for us to spend some time together, soon - I hope! Perhaps if I get accepted to Nursing school, I can splurge and come and visit with you!

I'm burning out of school. Perhaps its the uncertainity and knowing that after all of this hard work, I may not get into my program. That really changes your perspective, believe me. However, I am still moving on.

I'm embracing this change, taking it and moving on up!

For up is the only way to go!!

Risen!

I hope you all had a most enjoyable Easter. We enjoyed a dinner/day with family! What more could you ask for?


I need to post this, I love this story of Rose.


P.S. If you think taking pictures of 1 or 2 children is hard, try 3! Next to impossible, almost!!

While at the hospital on Saturday visiting my husbands grandmother, a nurse started talking with Rose about what happens Sunday (Easter). Nurse asked Rose, "Who comes tomorrow?" Rose thought for a quick moment and said, "Jesus". The nurse looked up at me with a startled eye. I smiled. She then proceeded to ask Rose, "Well, what is so special about tomorrow?" I know the Nurse was looking for the usual Easter Bunny, or Easter Basket reply, however Rose proceeded to state, "Jesus lives!". The look on the nurses face was pure joy in my heart. Hallelujah!